The Tears of a Spiritual Father

An Encounter with Elder Ioannikios at Panagia Prousiotissa

Panagia Prousiotissa โ€” Part III of Our Pilgrimage

Some encounters remain with us long after a pilgrimage has ended. Not because anything extraordinary happened outwardly, but because we found ourselves in the presence of someone whose faith and love seemed to overflow.

Such was our encounter with Elder Ioannikios, Abbot of the Monastery of Panagia Prousiotissa.

We had arrived before dawn on Sunday morning and spent the hours of Matins and the Divine Liturgy before the miraculous icon of the Mother of God. Afterwards, we gathered in the monastery’s archontariki, its traditional reception room for pilgrims, where the Abbot welcomed us and spoke to us.

We had already experienced the beauty of the monastery, its centuries of prayer, and the extraordinary story of its beloved icon. But what awaited us in that gathering was something altogether more personal.

Elder Ioannikios with some of the pilgrims in the monastery’s archontariki, following the Divine Liturgy. The room had been filled with pilgrims. Several later remarked on the gentle play of light between the icon of the Mother of God and the Elder.

A Return to the Beginning

Archimandrite Ioannikios Varvarelis was born in Almyros, Greece, in 1956. In 1975, at the age of nineteen, he became a monk at Panagia Prousiotissa under the guidance of Elder Gregory Zoumis, who later moved with his brotherhood to the Monastery of Docheiariou on Mount Athos.

His subsequent ministry took him to the Monastery of Panagia Xenia, where he served alongside the future Archbishop Christodoulos of Athens, and later to America, where he learned English and established connections with the Greek Orthodox community. Over the following decades, he served in various pastoral and administrative positions in Thessaly, restoring churches, developing parish life, and ministering to countless people.

On 17 October 2021, he was formally enthroned as Abbot of Panagia Prousiotissa.

He had returned to the monastery where his monastic journey had begun forty-six years earlier.

At his enthronement, he spoke movingly of this return. His past and future, he said, were bound to the same sacred place. Here he had offered the hopes of his youth to God; here he was now entrusting the years ahead to the Mother of God.

And he described what he believed his new ministry should be: to welcome pilgrims, embrace them with compassion, share their suffering, and lead them to the Lady of this holy place, who would present them as her beloved children to her Son.

Five years later, we were to witness something of what those words meant in practice.

The Tears of a Spiritual Father

What struck us most deeply was the Elder’s extraordinary zeal and love for the Mother of God.

Whenever he spoke of the Panagia, of her grace, her miracles, and her presence in the monastery, his voice trembled, and tears filled his eyes.

Again and again, he wept.

I do not remember ever hearing a spiritual talk quite like this one. His tears were not an occasional moment of emotion. They accompanied his words almost continuously whenever he spoke of the Mother of God.

He told us that this place was Paradise โ€” not because of its breathtaking natural beauty, though that alone is remarkable, but because the grace of the Panagia had made it so.

For him, Paradise did not seem merely a distant promise. Something of its light was already present here, in these mountains, beneath the protection of the Mother of God.

I found myself remembering the words of the Apostle Paul, who spoke of caring for those entrusted to him, โ€œnight and day,โ€ and โ€œwith tearsโ€ (Acts 20:31). There are tears born of sorrow, but also tears born of a love too deep for words. Watching Elder Ioannikios speak of the Mother of God, I wondered whether we were witnessing something of that same love.

Words can hardly convey the tenderness, spiritual fervour and deep love for the Mother of God with which Elder Ioannikios speaks. The following video offers a precious glimpse of his ministry in his own voice, with English subtitles for those who do not understand Greek.

And yet, moving as this video is, it hardly does him justice. No recording can quite capture what it was like to be there: to hear his voice trembling, to see the tears continually welling up in his eyes whenever he spoke of the Mother of God, to experience the extraordinary warmth and intensity of his presence. It was far more moving than any camera could convey.

The Lamp That Has Never Gone Out

The Elder spoke of the many miracles attributed to Panagia Prousiotissa, miracles which, he told us, continue to take place in the lives of people from all over the world.

Again and again, however, he returned to one remarkable tradition.

When the shepherds first discovered the miraculous icon in its mountain cave, they found a lamp already burning beside it. According to the Elder, this was a sign that an angel had been tending the lamp.

And from that first discovery until our own day, he told us, the lamp before the Panagia has remained unextinguished for some twelve hundred years.

He compared this ancient tradition with the lamp of the Holy Sepulchre in Jerusalem, speaking of the extraordinary continuity of prayer and worship in these two sacred places.

We had spent the entire Divine Liturgy before the icon. Now, listening to him, the little flame seemed to take on another meaning: a visible sign of the prayers of generations, offered before the same beloved face.

Where the Saints Once Stood

The Elder also spoke of the saints who had prayed and worshipped within these walls, from St Kosmas of Aetolia to St Porphyrios in our own times.

And then he showed us the very stasidion โ€” the wooden choir stall โ€” where St Porphyrios had stood.

It was immediately beside the place where I had been standing throughout the Divine Liturgy!

It is one thing to read about the saints in books. It is quite another to discover, unexpectedly, that one has been praying only a few steps from a place associated with their own prayer.

The Elder also encouraged us to become benefactors of monasteries and churches, reminding us of the spiritual significance of supporting places of worship and of having our names remembered in their prayers through the generations.

There was a sense throughout his talk that the Church was not simply an institution stretching across centuries, but a living communion of prayer, in which the departed and the living remain bound together before God.

The Lady of the House

Among the many miracles Elder Ioannikios recounted, one story particularly stayed with us.

A woman who had visited the monastery years earlier had purchased a large copy of the miraculous icon of Panagia Prousiotissa. She placed it in the most prominent position in her living room, where everyone entering the house would see it.

And she made a rather extraordinary declaration to the Mother of God:

โ€œFrom now on, You are the Lady of this house. You are in charge!โ€

Years passed. The woman had children, and then, quite suddenly, she was diagnosed with a particularly aggressive form of cancer.

In her anguish, she took the icon down from the wall, placed it opposite her chair, and began to scold the Panagia.

โ€œDidn’t we agree that You would be the Lady of this house? Look what has happened! How am I supposed to raise my children now? You must do something about this!โ€

At that very moment, the Elder told us, a flash of light came from the icon.

The woman understood it as an answer from the Mother of God. She returned the icon to its place on the wall and continued to pray.

According to the Elder’s account, when she returned to her doctors the following morning, they found no trace of the cancer.

What moved me particularly in this story was the extraordinary intimacy of the woman’s relationship with the Panagia. She had entrusted her home to her, and when everything seemed to collapse, she turned to her with the desperate familiarity of a child appealing to its mother.

Even her protest was an expression of trust.

The Pilgrims Who Walk Through the Night(s)

The Elder also told us of the thousands of pilgrims who undertake long and arduous journeys on foot to reach the monastery.

Some walk for fourteen hours. Others for twenty, forty-eight, even fifty hours, depending on where they begin.

Through the mountains, up the steep ascents, often without stopping, they come to ask the Panagia for help or to thank her for prayers answered.

And there, in the archontariki with us, were two young women who had walked for fourteen hours.

Only fourteen!

Their presence gave the Elder’s words a wonderful immediacy. These were not merely stories from another age. The ancient tradition of pilgrimage, sacrifice, and thanksgiving was alive before our eyes.

One by One

Perhaps the most revealing part of our encounter came after the Elder had finished speaking.

Those who wished to seek his counsel approached him individually, in a quiet corner of the room. He listened to their personal concerns, offered spiritual guidance, and took their names, promising to commemorate them at forty Divine Liturgies.

Afterwards, everyone spoke of his remarkable spiritual discernment, his sound judgement, and, above all, the tenderness and love with which he had received them.

It was not merely that he had spoken so movingly to a room full of pilgrims. He had made himself available to each person, one by one.

And all this in a monastery served by a brotherhood of just four monks, including the Abbot himself. One could only wonder at the demands placed upon so few, and at the generosity with which Elder Ioannikios continued to give his time, his prayers, and his heart to each pilgrim.

The Apostle Paul once wrote of giving others not only the Gospel of God, but โ€œour own selvesโ€ (1 Thessalonians 2:8). Perhaps this is one of the quietest and most demanding forms of spiritual fatherhood: not merely to offer words of wisdom, but to give one’s time, attention, prayer, and something of one’s very heart, without counting the cost.

I remembered the words of his enthronement, when he had spoken of welcoming pilgrims, embracing them with compassion, and sharing their suffering.

We had seen those words become a living ministry.

A Ministry of Love

Looking back on that Sunday morning, I remember many things: the darkness before dawn, the beauty of the monastery, the miraculous icon, the ancient lamp, the stories of the saints, and the pilgrims who had walked through the night.

But above all, I remember the Elder’s tears.

Tears whenever he spoke of the Panagia. A voice trembling with love. And then, when his talk was over, the same love expressed quietly and practically, in the time he gave to those who needed him.

Perhaps this is what stayed with us most deeply.

A spiritual father who, having spoken to everyone about the Mother of God, turned to listen to each person individually.

And in that small corner of the monastery’s reception room, his ministry of love continued.

Beating Christmas (and Life) Blues

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“My God, I cannot ‘stand’ your Love, because It is Immense and there is no place for It in my small heart ” (Translation of the scroll)

ย  1. Blessed are those who love Christ more than all the worldly things and live far from the world and near God, with heavenly joys upon the earth.

ย  2. Blessed are those who manage to live in obscuยญrity and acquired great virtues but did not acquire even a small name for themselves.

ย  3. Blessed are those who manage to act the fool and, in this way, protected their spiritual wealthย 

 

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4. Blessed are those who do not preach the Gospel with words, but live it and preach it with their silence, with the Grace of God, which betrays them.

ย  5. Blessed are those who rejoice when unjustly acยญcused, rather than when they are justly praised for their virtuous life. Here are the signs of holiness, not in the dry exertion of bodily asceticism and the great number of struggles, which, when not carried out with humility and the aim to take off the old man, create only illusions.

ย  6. Blessed are those who prefer to be wronged rather than to wrong others and accept serenely and silently injustices.ย Inย this way, they reveal in practice that they believe in โ€œone God, the Father Almightyโ€ and expect to be vindicated by Him and not by human beings who repay in this life with vanity.
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7. Blessed are those who have been born crippled or became so due to their own carelessness, yet do not grumble but glorify God. They will hold the best place in Paradise along with the Confessors and Martyrs, who gave their hands and feet for the love of Christ and now constantly kiss with devoutness the hands and feet of Christ in Paradise.

ย  8. Blessed are those who were born ugly and are deยญspised here on earth, because they are entitled to the most beautiful place in Paradise, provided they glorify God and do not grumble.

ย  9. Blessed are those widows who wear black in this life, even unwillingly, but live a white spiritual life and glorify God without complaining, rather than the misยญerable ones who wear assorted clothes and live a spotยญted life.

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10. Blessed and thrice blessed are the orphans who have been deprived of their parentsโ€™ great affection, for they managed to have God as their Father already fromย this life. At the same time, they have the affection they were deprived of from their parents in Godโ€™s savings bank โ€œwith interestโ€.

ย  11. Blessed are those parents who avoid the use of the word โ€œdonโ€™tโ€ with their children, instead restraining them from evil through their holy life โ€“ a life which chilยญdren imitate, joyfully following Christ with spiritual bravery.

ย  12. Blessed are those children who have been born โ€œfrom their motherโ€™s wombโ€(Mt. 19:12)ย holy, but even more blessed are those who were born with all the inherited passions of the world, struggled with sweat and upยญrooted them and inherited the Kingdom of God in the sweat of their faceย (Cf.ย Gen. 3:19).

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13. Blessed are those children who lived from inยญfancy in a spiritual environment and, thus, tirelessly adยญvanced in the spiritual life.

Thrice blessed, however, are the mistreated ones who were not helped at all (on the contrary, they were pushed towards evil), but as soon as they heard of Christ, their eyes glistened, and with a one hundred and eighty degree turn they suddenly made their soul to shine as well. They departed from the attraction of earth and moved into the spiritual sphere.

ย  14. Fortunate, worldly people say, are the astronauts who are able to spin in the air, orbit the moon or even walk on the moon.

Blessed, however, are the immaterial โ€œParadise-nautsโ€, who ascend often to God and travel about Paradise, their place of permanent abode, with the quickest of means and without much fuel, besides one crust of bread.

15. Blessed are those who glorify God for the moon that glimmers that they might walk at night.

More blessed, however, are those who have come to understand that neither the light of the moon is of the moon, nor the spiritual light of their soul of themยญselves, but both are of God. Whether they can shine like a mirror, a pane of glass or the lid of a tin can, if the rays of the sun do not fall on them, it is impossible for them to shine.

 

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16. Fortunate, worldly people tell us, are those who live in crystal palaces and have all kinds of convenยญiences.

Blessed, however, are those who have managed to simยญplify their life and become liberated from the web of this worldโ€™s development of numerous conveniences (i.e. many inconveniences), and were released from the frightening stress of our present age.

 

ย 17. Fortunate, worldly people say, are those who can enjoy the goods of the world.

Blessed, however, are those who give away everyยญthing for Christ and are deprived even of every huยญman consolation for Christ. Thus it is that they manยญage to be found night and day near Christ and His diยญvine consolation, which many times is so much that they say to God: โ€œMy God, Thy love cannot be enยญdured, for it is great and cannot be fit within my small heartโ€.

ย  18. Fortunate, worldly people say, are those who have the greatest jobs and the largest mansions, since they possess all means and live comfortably.

Blessed, however, according to the divine Paul, are those who have but a nest to perch in, a little food and some coverings99โ€ข For, in this way, theyโ€™ve managed to become estranged from the vain world, using the earth as a footstool, as children of God, and their mind is conยญstantly found close to God, their Good Father.

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ย  19. Fortunate are those who become generals and government ministers in their head by way of heavy drinking (even if just for a few hours), with the worldยญly rejoicing over it.

Blessed, however, are those who have put off the old man and have become incorporeal, managing to be earthly angels with the Holy Spirit. They have found Paradiseโ€™s divine faucet and drink from it and are conยญtinually inebriated from the heavenly wine.

ย  20. Blessed are those who were born crazy and will be judged as crazy, and, in this way, will enter Paradise without a passport.

Blessed and thrice blessed, however, are the very wise who feign foolishness for the love of Christ and mock all the vanity of the world. This foolishness for Christโ€™s sake is worth more than all the knowledge and wisdom of the wise of this world.

 

 

I beg all the Sisters to pray for God to give me, or rather take from me my little mind, and, in this way, seยญcure Paradise for me by considering me a fool. Or, makeย me crazy with His love so I go out my self, outside of the earth and its pull, for, otherwise my life as a monk has no meaning. I became externally white as a monk. As I go I become internally black by being a negligent monk, but I justify myself as one unhealthy, when I hapยญpen to be so; other times, I excuse myself again for beยญing ill, even though I am well, and so I deserve to be thoroughly thrashed. Pray for me.

 

May Christ and Panagia be with you,

With love of Christ, Your Brother, Monk Paisios

(โ€œTimiou Stavrouโ€, December 2, 1972).

 

โ€œWoe to you that are full now, for you shall hunger.
โ€œWoe to you that laugh now, for you shall mourn and weep.
โ€œWoe to you, when all men speak well of you, for so their fathers did
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โ€œThe Beatitudesโ€ with Elder Paisios of theย Holyย Mountainย (Taken from the Elderโ€™ Sixth Epistle)ย 

“…

Sister Abbess Philothei, Your blessing,

Today, a kind of craziness took hold of me and I took the pencil, as does the madman who writes his outbursts on the wall with charcoal, and I sat down to write my own things on paper like one crazed, and, again, like a lunatic, to send them to you in writยญing. I am doing this latter craziness out of much love for my Sisters, that they might be edified, even if only a little.

The reason for the initial craziness was five letยญters, one after the other, from various parts of Greece on a variety of subjects. While the events described were great blessings of God,ย those who wrote to me had fallen into despair because they dealt with them in a worldly way.ย 

After replying accordingly to their letters, I took the pencil like a madman, as I have said, and wrote this epistle. I believe that even a fifty-cent piece from your journeying brother will be something toward a flint for each one of the Sisters so as to light a little candle inย her cell and offer her doxology to our Good God.

I feel great joy when every Sister, with her particuยญlar cross carries out the equivalent struggle withย philoยญtimo.ย 

It is a small thing to give to Christ a heart equal in size and as luminous as the sun out of gratitude for His great gifts, and especially for the particular honour He showed us monks by conscripting us with personal sumยญmons to His Angelic Order.

A great honour also belongs to the parents who were thus made worthy of becoming related to God. Unforยญtunately, however, most parents do not realize this and, instead of being grateful to God, are infuriated etc., for they see everything in a worldly way, like those people I mentioned earlier, who became the reason for me to take the pencil and write everything that follows. …”