My Twelve Days of Christmas — Part A

Dec 24 — Eve of the Nativity of Christ, Eugenia the Righteous Nun-martyr of Rome and those with her

Suddenly our friend D. is in hospital, and soon in intensive care. Agony, heartache and a complete mess at work.

Dec 25 — THE NATIVITY OF OUR LORD AND SAVIOR, JESUS CHRIST

Thank God, we made it to church and received Holy Communion. Only our Christmas meal got cancelled as our hosts got down with the flu. So we brought them chicken soup, exchanged presents and wishes in the balcony, and spent the remainder of the day in hesychia.

Dec 26 — SYNAXIS OF THE HOLY THEOTOKOS

Thank God, an invitation from dear brothers and sisters from the Metochion of St. George to rescue us from our ‘lockdown’. These days are difficult when you are alone or together with difficult family members. The meal, the company and the carols were a great blessing despite the little temptation on our way when both of our back tyres got flat/ punctured (a neighbour’s prank) and we had to call road assistance etc.

The greatest blessing of all was our hostess, A., a widow and a valiant Christian soul. When that car hit her husband’s car, cut him half and left him paralysed from the waist down, she bore bravely the Cross for 10, even more, years, becoming the pillar of her family, until her husband reposed in the Lord, supporting her orphan young boy. This day brought me even closer to dear A., and I am sure I can learn a lot how one should live, just by being next to her and observing her.

Dec 27 — STEPHEN, ARCHDEACON & FIRST MARTYR

Back to work and hospital/ doctors check about D. Thankfully, lots of chanting rehearsals too.

Dec 28–20, 000 Martyrs burned in Nicomedia, Simon the Myrrhbearer, Founder of Simonopetra, Monastery of Mount Athos, Afterfeast of the Nativity

Dec 29–14,000 infants (Holy Innocents) slain by Herod in Bethlehem

St. Anysia’s relics

The evening at St Demetrius’ church, in front of St. Anysia’s relics, was a blessing words cannot describe. The choir’s hymns were celestial.

Look at this little Romanian pilgrim venerating the Saint! Isn’t she beautiful?! She is real!

Dec 30 — Anysia the Virgin-martyr of Thessaloniki

Christmas carols to local charity stores, hospitals, orphanages etc, with St George Metochion choir of all the faithful. Father Deacon Nephon on the right (2.17 m tall) is the heart and soul of all our activities, and such a help and consolation in our lives!

The highlight of the visit was, of course, Konstantina, a little girl, suffering from a range of diseases, kidney failure to terminal cancer, pleading God, as Fr. Deacon Nephon told us, to end her life as she could take no more suffering. We sang carols to her, offered her presents and lit a birthday cake.

This tour to hospitals and orphanages made me realise how little I am suffering bearing my own Cross, whereas I believe that my burden is sooo heavy. Little did I know!

Later in the afternoon, we drive to Serres to spend the weekend and New Year’s Day together with dear friends. Such a blessing again not to be left alone these days. These Christmas blues … But it seems that we can never have enough of hospitals these days. Three hours after our arrival, V.’ mother nearly collapsed and we had to take her to Serres’ hospital. We spent a long vigil there until 03:30, but thank God, although she had to stay in hospital, her condition was stabilised.

Dec 31 —Apodosis of the Nativity of Our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, Melania the Younger, Nun of Rome, 

I barely made it to church in the morning with just three hours sleep, and then slept most of the day after we got back. We welcomed the New Year in church, in a vigil, and it was the first time in my life that while we were on our way to Holy Communion, we could hear all the fireworks and celebrations outside. The vigil took place in a beautiful, new church, dedicated to St. Spyridon.

I forgot to mention that in the evening of Dec 30, right after our arrival in Serres, Father Ioustinos from Jacob’s Well in Jerusalem, 83 years young, called me, after so many years, and together with his news, he offered to make an icon, possibly of St Spyridon!!!

Jan 1–Circumcision of Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, Basil the Great, Archbishop of Caesarea in Cappadocia

Today, we made a pilgrimage to the monastery of St. John the Forerunner in Serres.

This is a monastery I have visited in the past, but this time our friend V. led me inside a hidden chapel-within- the-chapel from 1270! Of course, it was dedicated to St Spyridon!

Nature was so beautiful outside and everywhere little chapels awaited us to be discovered.

By C.

To be continued …

A blessed 2024

THE GATE OF THE YEAR

‘God Knows’

And I said to the man who stood at the gate of the year:

“Give me a light that I may tread safely into the unknown”.

And he replied:

“Go out into the darkness and put your hand into the Hand of God.

That shall be to you better than light and safer than a known way”.

So I went forth, and finding the Hand of God, trod gladly into the night.

And He led me towards the hills and the breaking of day in the lone East.

So heart be still:

What need our little life

Our human life to know,

If God hath comprehension?

In all the dizzy strife

Of things both high and low,

God hideth His intention.

God knows. His will

Is best. The stretch of years

Which wind ahead, so dim

To our imperfect vision,

Are clear to God. Our fears

Are premature; In Him,

All time hath full provision.

Then rest: until

God moves to lift the veil

From our impatient eyes,

When, as the sweeter features

Of Life’s stern face we hail,

Fair beyond all surmise

God’s thought around His creatures

Our mind shall fill.

Minnie Louise Haskins, British poet and academic

Christmas Greetings to all the faithful

Dearest Friends in Christ,


Today when God comes to us,


May the joy of the archangels be yours,

May the wisdom of the wise men be yours,

May the watchfulness of the shepherds be yours,

May the contemplation of Joseph be yours,

May the humility of the oxen and donkey be yours,

May the brightness of the stars be yours,

May the love of the Holy Virgin be yours,

May the peace of the Christ Child be yours.

Today the earth gives a cave

Today the heavens give a sign

Today the Magi offer gifts

Today the angels glorify in praise

Today the shepherds hear the proclamation

Today we offer our hearts


“We worship thy Nativity O Christ

Show us also Thy Divine Theophany”

Gerondas Gregorios of Blessed Memory 10 “Commandments”

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Gerondas Gregorios Papasotiriou, Spiritual Father and Founder of the Saint John the Forerunner Monastery at Metamorfosi, Chalkidiki–This list was compiled by some of his spiritual children in his memory on the day of the memorial.

  1. Orthodoxy equals Orthopraxy— we should always seek virtue by engaging in a spiritual battle against our passions.
  2. Paradise is not earned “from the armchair” [Greek idiom, meaning without any effort],
    but requires hard work. “The Kingdom of Heaven suffereth violence, and the
    violent take it by force.
    ” (Matthew 11:12)
  3. We should endure with patience sorrows, trials, injustices, and insults.
  4. We should study the Gospel and the lives of the Saints so that we can see our spiritual poverty and wretchedness.
  5. We should also pray alone “ Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on us”, “ Most
    Holy Theotokos save us”, “ Holy Saints of God pray/ intercede for us”.
  6. We should chant to dissipate our melancholy and spiritual idleness/acedia.
  7. Whatever we do, we should do it with all our heart. Life without a heart is not
    really life. We become robots if we have a mind, a sharp brain, and are very
    clever, yet do not have a heart; then we have nothing.
  8. We should attend Church as often as we can and we should receive Holy
    Communion after Confession, and if that is not possible, when we have peace in our heart.
  9. We should prepare before Confession so that when we go to the Sacrament,
    we should confess our own sins, and not those of others, without idle words,
    with self-knowledge, and real repentance.
  10. We should tolerate and forgive others so that God also forgives us.

End of an Era

Elder Gregorios 40 Day Memorial Service

Synaxis of Light

Among the many theologians of the Orthodox Church, three saints are given the appellation Theologian: St. John the Theologian, St. Gregory the Theologian, and St. Symeon the New Theologian. There is a monastery in Panorama, at Thessaloniki suburbs, the Monastery of the Holy Trinity, which is the only one all over the world with a chapel dedicated to these three theologians, celebrating their annual Panegyris, the Feast of the Synaxis of the Three Theologians, on the first Saturday of each November.

Here are some words of Elder Symeon Kragiopoulos of blessed memory, spiritual father and founder of the monastery, about these three theologians, and St. Symeon the New Theologian, his patron Saint, in particular, that shed light into his decision to dedicate the brotherhood to them.

St. John the Theologian: Love

“Throughout his gospel, he writes about himself: John 13:23 “Now there was leaning on Jesus’ bosom one of his disciples, whom Jesus loved” (and 19:26; 21:7 and 20) … Saint John had this understanding that he was the disciple whom Christ loved. …Let us all focus on this. Do I possess God’s Love? Do I feel God’s Love? God is offering His Love, but does it reach my soul?”

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St. Gregory the Theologian: Unceasing Prayer and Hesychia

“Remember God more often than you breathe.”

Μνημονευτέον γὰρ Θεοῦ μᾶλλον ἢ ἀναπνευστέον»

“No sooner do I conceive of the Οne than I am encircled, illumined by the splendour of the Τhree; no sooner do I distinguish them than I am carried back to the Οne.

When I contemplate the three together, I see but one torch, and cannot divide or measure out the undivided light.”

The first of all beautiful things is the continual possession of God.

For God loves to be entreated, He loves to be compelled.

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Saint Symeon the New Theologian: Insatiable Thirst for God, Extreme Humility and Sacramental Obedience to his spiritual father [obedience given to the spiritual father for Christ’s sake which thus becomes obedience to Christ].

All aspects of St. Simeon’s life are most noteworthy, but what is probably the most striking element of all is his sacramental love and obedience to his spiritual father.

Look at the spiritual heights St. Symeon reached:

Light

In the midst of that night, in my darkness

In the midst of that night, in my darkness,
I saw the awesome sight of Christ
opening the heavens for me.
And he bent down to me and showed himself to me
with the Father and the Holy Spirit
in the thrice holy light —
a single light in three, and a threefold light in one,
for they are altogether light,
and the three are but one light,.
And he illumined my soul
more radiantly than the sun,
and he lit up my mind,
which had until then been in darkness.
Never before had my mind seen such things.
I was blind, you should know it, and I saw nothing.
That was why this strange wonder
was so astonishing to me,
when Christ, as it were, opened the eye of my mind,
when he gave me sight, as it were,
and it was him that I saw.
He is Light within Light, who appears
to those who contemplate him,
and contemplatives see him in light —
see him, that is, in the light of the Spirit…
And now, as if from far off,
I still see that unseeable beauty,
that unapproachable light, that unbearable glory.
My mind is completely astounded.
I tremble with fear.
Is this a small taste from the abyss,
which like a drop of water
serves to make all water known
in all its qualities and aspects?…
I found him, the One whom I had seen from afar,
the one whom Stephen saw
when the heavens opened,
and later whose vision blinded Paul.
Truly, he was as a fire in the centre of my heart.
I was outside myself, broken down, lost to myself,
and unable to bear the unendurable brightness of that glory.
And so, I turned
and fled into the night of the senses.

Pay attention to his starting point:

Obedience

Experiences of a man named “George“.

In Saint Symeon’s “On Faith” found in the “Philokalia“, there is an account of the experiences of a young man named “George” [- Symeon himself of course -][Saint Symeon the New Theologian reposed in the Lord in 1022].

THERE was someone called George, very young in age, nearly twenty years old, living in Constantinople – in our own day.

He was very good-looking, and he went about with such ideas of his own appearance, that many people had a mean opinion of him, especially those who judge things by a man’s outward show, and who, without taking into consideration what is hidden in each person, condemn, and become indiscriminate judges of others.

This young man made the acquaintance of a very holy monk, who lived in a monastery in Constantinople, and opening up to him all that was hidden in his heart, he even told him that he longed for the salvation of his soul, and had a great desire to remove from the world, and become a monk.

Συμεών ο Νέος Θεολόγος, «ο Θεολόγος του φωτός» η «ο Άγιος του φωτός».Orama-ag-Symeon-CMYK-B-IST2

Now, the honourable Elder praised him for the goal he had set for himself; he counselled him, as was proper, and gave him that book of Saint Marc the Ascetic to read, in which he writes about the spiritual law.

… Every evening, when he went to bed to sleep, he made the prayer and the prostrations which that holy Elder had encouraged him to do, and then fell asleep. … Thus grew from day to day the prayer he made each evening, to which he applied himself until midnight. … So then it was, that one evening at the time when he was praying, and was saying with heart-sight (νοερῶς) in the eye of his heart, the “God be merciful to me a sinner”, suddenly a divine illumination shone out upon him, and that whole place was filled with that light.

And that blessed young man, I mean to say, George, remained in wonderment and forgot whether he was in his house, because he saw light everywhere, as if he were outdoors.

Nor did he comprehend whether his feet were still planted on the earth, or whether he was standing upon air; but at the same time, he had no bodily or worldly concern in his heart-mind (νοῦς) at all, but he completely forgot the whole world, and everything met and became one with the divine light; and it seemed to him, that he too became light, and was wholly filled with tears and an indescribable joy.

And at the last, his heart-mind went up to the heavens, and there he saw another light, brighter still, and beside that light it seemed to him that there stood the holy Elder who had given to him, as we said, the book of St Marc, and the prayer rule which he observed.

Now I myself, as I heard these things from the young man, came to the conclusion that the intercession of the holy Elder contributed a great deal to this, and that God so ordered things to show the young man to what height of virtue the holy Elder had come, which is why he saw him standing beside that light.”

Saint Symeon the New Theologian, “On Faith”.

Most importantly, even, at the height of God’s revelations, St. Symeon saw his holy Elder standing and attributed everything to his prayers.


May these three Saints inspire us and intercede for us, help us ascend the Divine Ladder towards the goal: eternal life in the Kingdom of God.

Travelling Light

Today, my good friend A. sent me this:

“We are travelling to an unknown city of Cappadocia, walking in the midst of volcanic valleys …

… which Greek people have turned into fertile land …

… climbing high, up to the crenellations where Digenes Akrites (1) raised their swords …

… where the powers of Light fought those of Darkness …

We are going to celebrate Holy Liturgy there, in an orthodox temple (2)

… so that Tabor light will shine in our souls (3)

… and all mankind

(1) Digenes Akritas: “digenes” literally means “born of two races”, i.e. “Roman” (Byzantine/Greek) and “Saracen” and “Akritas” means “frontiersman.”, existing at the borders between Christendom and Islamic lands

(2) Kizil Kilise, the Red Church

(3) Karanlik Kilise in Goreme

Standing in a Circle around our Good Shepherd

“– Come you, my blessed brothers,

All of us who are standing in a circle around our Good Shepherd.

Come, let us all offer unto him most welcome gifts:

One of us, his gladsome face, 

Another one, his lack of grouching;

Another one, his readiness to serve,

And yet, another one, his silence.

And let us offer, all of us,  

The violence unto His Kingdom; 

The labour to spend ourselves

On behalf of each other;

And the care so that our obedience unto our Lord 

Is never broken.

Let us all offer Joy to our dearest Father with such gifts.

— And now, you, beloved, honourable Father,

Cease not, tire not praying to God,

Seeking His Mercy for all of us,

Atoning for our sins.

Disobedient, defiled children are we,

Yet for the sake of your love for your children,

May we all be drawn together,

Unto the Kingdom of Heaven.

Day 5: Returning

Panorama Monastery Dormition of the Theotokos
On our way back from St. Arsenios Monastery

Some years ago I learned that numbers are not important. The number of people attending Church is not an accurate indicator of either faith or success; however one measures success? Geronda Theoklitos of St Arsenios monastery confirmed this independently of my thoughts when he said ” look after your small flock.”
” God looks at the heart not on the outward appearence” as the prophet Samuel said to Jesse, the father of David.
I have passed through security and passport control. The flight is delayed. Time to pray. We pray that God will keep us all in his love.
“Wherefore, O you who fear the Lord, praise Him in the places where ye now are. Change of place does not effect any drawing nearer unto God, but wherever you may be, God will come to you, if the chambers of your soul be found of such a sort that He can dwell in you and walk in you.” St Gregory of Nyssa 8

A still small voice

Greece and its next plague of Egypt … This and the following images show the devastating effect of the storm Daniel on its eastern coast.

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Then He said, ‘Go out, and stand on the mountain before the Lord.’ And behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind tore into the mountains and broke the rocks in pieces before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind; and after the wind an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake; and after the earthquake a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire; and after the fire a still small voice. So it was, when Elijah heard it…”
1 Kings 19:11-13

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The travelling guide’s diary—2

Some Abouna quotes and vignettes that struck my attention during his little pilgrimage … all in a ‘still small voice’ which ended up in silence

The LORD will fight for you, and you have only to be silent! (Ex. 14:13-14).

*About Joy in Christ and Suffering: “Christ has offered us so much joy in meeting twice at such a short time [I am bound to travel to the UK end of September] barely a month apart, because we are going to suffer when all this ends.”

*About House Blessings: why did Abouna say such fervent prayers at the blessing of a particular house — his eyes were ablaze!— and he completely ‘ignored’ another house we visited? He barely stayed there 5 min and even suggested we all have coffee outside (!) at the neighbouring cafe. Such hurry, such ‘rudeness’! He barely even looked at their icon corner!

*About Monastic Calling and Monasteries: So many lengthy discussions and inquiries all these days, on foot, or inside the car during the long car drives, about which monastery to choose and become a monastic, even at the monasteries we visited, inquiring/ discussing with the monastics themselves about their monastery typikon … yet no conclusive answer … only silence! Just hints about city hermits …

*Gerondas Theoklitos of St. Arsenios of Vatopedi holding Abouna tightly and hugging him so tightly! A scene I will never forget! What a surprise! I always thought Gerondas Theoklitos was very strict and never expressed his emotions!…